The next chapter. Hm I wonder. Those days when we took everything for granted are pretty much gone. Last year definitely showed me that stepping into the unknown is now the new normal. I cannot plan much so not knowing what is going to happen is a normal thing. That's what I have been feeling and experiencing.
I was so use to knowing of what was happening each day every day but for over a year is not the case. It was tough at the start to not to know, specially after I decided to leave my job and my house. Yes one of my biggest fears was the fear of the unknown. I faced it but I had a faith. I knew I was ready and it happened in right time for me. If I knew the pandemic was going to hit I
wouldn't probably do that because I would think ahead too much. The fact I didn't have a clue something was going to turn up anyway. Something will always turn up regardless, the mind likes to feel limited sometimes and we think this is it. There is nothing and there are many limitations but there isn't in reality because end of the day is always up to us to take chances & actions.
We think we know it all but we don't. The reason I have procrastinated many times was because I was living in predictable future based on past experiences, just as Joe Dispenza explains. (he is very worth listening to!) We make decisions, think and take actions based on our experiences from the past and likely to stay in our comfort zone. I can find myself slipping into it again and that's ok, everything is a progress and constant learning. More so constant reminders are needed. As you go through journey of awakening you will discover that you will need to rewrite everything you thought you knew and believed! You will discover that everything you have been taught, believed, knew was not exactly the right thing. Deep within yourself you will start to question things. Once you do that's the beginning. You will have the urge to dive deeper. To search more information, to look beyond what you are constantly shown. You will have feeling that something is not right. You will discover that you will need to start to look within rather than outside of you. You will have doubts. You start to question your entire life. And the way this society runs! You will understand that in order to change anything you will have to change everything about yourself in order to return back to who you truly are. This will take time and fucking patience I tell you that.
The urge to give up will come up many times but what helps me is to remember that I chose to be here, I chose to have this life and have this experience. I chose my purpose here this lifetime and I chose people that I come across to learn the lessons that needs to be learned. You did too! We signed up for this and if you have feeling of not belonging. Find yourself being outsider. Not liking this reality. Missing home even if you don't know where it might be is because you came here to help create new world. You came here with strong purpose!
The unknown is our friend even when it might not seem like it. Doing things that are uncomfortable and scary will move you forward. You will discover whole new version of yourself you didn't even know existed, more so you will be more confident, you will learn to trust yourself more. There are many advantages to be in the unknown but it's hard sometimes. Rather than looking for issues and problems we can learn for solutions and do things differently. We will expand our perspective and learn to look at everything in different way.
Trust trust trust that you will always be ok because you will be. Fear is something that has been planted within our minds but we can learn to let go of it too. Never underestimate your own power you hold within. Start with small steps and let it unfold for you. Small steps to start coming back to yourself and your own independent thought and the truth.
Much Love
Lilu xx
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