How do you feel right now? Has a person or situation triggered you? Did you over react or did you respond? Do you feel annoyed, because you know it's about the same thing and it keeps happening over and over or it just arises?
Has someone upset you? Did you get angry? Did you get sad? Are you jealous? Do you feel guilty about a person or situation?
Trigger is simply emotional, physical reaction and it can be intense and can affect our emotional state.
We can get triggered quite often, but we may react straight away without even acknowledging why we are getting upset in first place. There are many reasons why we get triggered. Let's dive into the past a little bit. As a child I would be being picked on, made fun of, and humiliated. Sadly to say by a family member. In my adult life I would get triggered when I am being called to speak up in front of the group or when someone is making fun of me. So back in my childhood I have made few agreements, beliefs (unconsciously) and now there is emotional & neurological connection linked to the past experience. Every time a moment arises that can have very similar experience be it speaking in front of people, having all attention on me. This emotional response will occur, body will take itself to the past experience and recall the exact emotional response as if all of that is happening all over again as it did in the past.
In this case my childhood. Many beliefs and agreements run on a subconscious level, When this emotional response occur we may not be even consciously aware why this is happening, more so many of us don't even pause and think why we act the way we act.
In some cases we can remember the moments when we did get hurt, betrayed, upset, angry, sad. The more I dived into memories and moments that were painful, uncomfortable, unhappy, more I could find connection between my current behaviours, actions, beliefs agreements that I am still holding onto from the past. I did get angry, frustrated just of a thought of some of these experiences and trust me last thing I wanted to do is go back to the pain I felt. Only thing I knew was that I was tired of certain blockages that I carried with me in my adulthood. I was tired of being and feeling the way I was and I was ready to face the dark stuff. I knew I wanted to move on towards living better life and be ready to get uncomfortable at times. In all honesty this shit takes a lot of courage.
Years of self development can still bring many surprises. Many blind spots to be revealed as well. By consciously becoming aware of our triggers we can recognise and remember the connection. We can also choose to overcome those feelings and reactions when we let go
of the past. When we work through the uncomfortable feelings, fully acknowledge and accept it.
Someone can say to you that you are ugly and you get sad and upset. In the past someone said it and you took it on as your truth. Now in your adulthood you think you are ugly, because you are still carrying the truth around, The thing is that the person that told you you are ugly was projecting their own beliefs and you took it as yours. If someone says to you you are not good enough is not because you are not good enough, it is because they don't have their own worth. If someone is jealous it's because they have their own insecurities. The list can go on but this is just a few examples. We can choose to rewrite those patterns create new beliefs and agreements,
A lot of times we are carrying truths, beliefs that are not even ours. People project their own shit on others and that's why it's important to be mindful about what you take on as yours and what you believe to be true.
Perhaps next time you overreact or get triggered ask yourself where this might come from? Just become aware of it little more. By becoming aware of oneself we can start making changes.
Much Love
Lilu x
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