When we are in tornado of unpleasant experience it can be tough sometimes to even think that it will turn out to be positive experience when we see what have we learned and how we have grown afterwards.
Last 2 months I had a lot going on and challenges in my personal life and It seemed really tough to keep in positive state of mind consistently because the truth is life hits you in the face sometimes and that's a fact. I have never really suffered with anxiety throughout my life and about 6 weeks ago I have ended up in A&E with multiple panic attacks and have been experiencing anxiety since. I am aware what has likely caused the panic attack now and as the time have passed since I am having more insights about it all. What have I been learning since? That your fears will be brought up on surface sooner or later. It will happen one or the other but in time you are ready to handle it. Even when it may seem as if you are not going to be able to handle that (that is fear own it's own and probably one of the biggest one for all of us) fear of not being able to handle when stuff arises.
I have realized that when we are truly ready for a change to occur in our life it will. We constantly try to ask for things to be better. Better job, better partner, better lifestyle, better way to be, better way to deal with things etc. The truth is our prayers are heard, acknowledged, In order to get it though we have to be put through experiences that will get us the things we desire.
Years ago you may have asked for specific thing and it has manifested through certain experience. We manifest all the time we just do not have full awareness of the fact that is what we have asked for. I am slowly leaving the tornado (metaphorically) with some lessons and realizations. I learned that there is massive importance to feel safe in your own body. No one and nothing external can make you feel fully safe unless you feel safe within yourself. Yes there could be external help but the overall understanding of what you truly need within yourself comes first.
I have learned/learning that if I don't trust myself first and fully I will never be able to fully trust other people. Also that these difficult times requires more self care compassion, self love and self acceptance. To really be your own best friend.
The inner world works like a mirror to the external. If I am not trusting myself I am likely to attract someone who has trust issues. If I don't take care of my own being and make myself priority I will attract someone who is not going to make me a priority and that will most likely trigger me (I believe many would get triggered). These are just few examples thrown on the table here.
So to say this is a process and we are all learning. So I am not here to share that I have all my shit together because I don't (No one does really) The Ultimate Shit you can have together is the awareness of one self though the lens of seeing it as a experience without the labels and being at peace even in the tornado.
Even in the tornado there is a peace already we just do not feel it or sense it because it covered with all those worries, being out of control, we don't trust ourselves or the process and other things. There is however sense of knowing that it is going to be OK and it will be. There is a voice in the background telling you you going to be ok and you will get through it and that's the voice we should trust more. It is about what relationship you have with yourself. You are either your best friend or worst enemy. Which one sounds more appealing to you?
We do not care for ourselves the way we are supposed to. We neglect ourselves, we doubt ourselves, we criticize ourselves we prioritize the needs of others over our own. Remember the time where you really did something for yourself that truly recharged your batteries? You felt good about yourself, about doing it and you had more energy and willingness to give to others. It requires you to dive inwards little more. Things change and they always do. You change I change everyone does. We always have the opportunity to start fresh and do something little different. There are people who will support you because the ones that support you are the ones you want to have around. Your environment makes big role in your life's journey.
Ask Ask Ask, What is this teaching me? What do I need to do? What is the next step I should take? I know it can be difficult sometimes to see the light and I hear you. But there is always room for change and action. You are not alone. It's ok to recieve help and there are people who are willing to help and that makes very big difference to drop down some of the load you may be carrying. We are here to help each other.
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